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  Authun did not see it that way and felt the shame build further in him. Already that shame had taken him from his kingdom, from his family and his battles to sit in the freezing woods, listening to the voice of the waters for year upon year and going to war on the person he had been. And yet, when robbers came, when bears struck at him or the winter bit, he could not let himself go, could not die, and fought always for life. He hunted when he would rather have starved, drank when he would have died of thirst. Saitada had been wrong. Authun couldn’t kill anyone at all. He couldn’t kill himself. He couldn’t step over the threshold he had pushed so many others across. The dishonour of that hovered above him like a mighty fist that could smash him at any instant.

  ‘What would you have me do, lady?’

  Saitada pointed to the north.

  ‘You want me to go with you? For what? You gave me pity and despair. What other gifts do you have for me?’

  Saitada stared into his eyes and said the first word she had ever spoken in his language other than his name, the word she had heard whispered through the witch caves on the trembling lips of the boys, on the hushed breath of the girls.

  ‘Death,’ she said. She walked forward and put the bundle she was carrying into his arms. He opened it and in the pale light of the woodland night saw the scabbard of the Moonsword. He drew the sword and watched the cold spark of the moon run the length of the blade.

  ‘Then I will follow you,’ he said.

  Saitada turned and began to walk out of the forest.

  49

  Manifestation

  The witch’s energies had been directed towards Lieaibolmmai — towards giving him enough power to bring calamity on himself. She had provided the noose. He had put his head inside it and jumped. When he died under the teeth of the wolf, her mind became free.

  She had been in the wolf’s mouth, the lowest cave, lying naked upon the teeth of stone to demand the gods recognise her suffering with revelation. She wanted to open that door that led even further into the earth, to the bound god, his serpents and his bowl. But she couldn’t find him. The passageways he had inhabited were still there but there was no sign of Loki, nor even a resonance of his presence. In her pain, frustration and madness she did not even notice that the sword she had enchanted was gone.

  Lieaibolmmai’s passing had come to her like a lightening in the atmosphere, the feeling of a house with its doors left open to spring after a long heavy winter.

  She struggled up from the jagged rocks and stood in her blood and her filth. Although the queen knew her way through the tunnels by touch, she had prepared a little lamp for the end of her ordeal, knowing that she would want the comfort of light after travelling to such dark places. She lit it and felt a tingle of relief course through her. At her feet was the little piece of leather with the Wolfsangel rune carved on it. She touched it and felt the resonance of the symbol inside her. It had returned to her. Yes, Odin was dead, taken by the only thing that could take him — the Fenris Wolf come to earth. She had given the hanged god his runes, let him come to his knowledge of himself, and he had cast the spell that had killed him.

  She stumbled up a passage to where a spring spilled from the ground. She cupped her hand to drink, and as she lifted the water, some passed through her fingers. It fell, she thought, too quickly. She picked up a pebble and rolled it in her hand. It dropped from her fingers and bounced on the rocky floor. Too far? It seemed so to her. Only Odin could frighten the rocks and the streams, only Odin could make the air depart and the seas pull away. He was still alive. Despite her best efforts, he was still alive.

  The witch queen — though she was now queen only of herself, her subjects all lying slaughtered — sank down in the dark, trembling. The air was moving in the passageways. She knew what it was — the breath of the god. He was coming for her and she was alone: no sisters to augment her power, no army of witches to send against him to weaken him. Had she been tricked? Had some deeper magic than hers turned her hands to murder?

  The witch felt her mind twist. The god crowded in on her, inhabited everything around her, seeped through the passageways and caves to surround and suffocate her. Odin had come for her — Odin, lord of the hanged, Odin the berserk, Odin the frenzied, dangler, screamer, spear inviter, old one eye, Odin the mad, Odin the poet, Odin the rain, Odin the rock, Odin the dark and Odin the light. He waited at every turn of the tunnel, hid in every pool, but flickered away as she snatched a hand into the blackness to catch him, splashed footsteps through the dark as she chased to confront him.

  And if Odin was there, where was the wolf? She had thought the northern sorcerer would bring Fenrisulfr to flesh on earth and destroy himself. But if the drum magician was not Odin, then the wolf could not have manifested. She was sure the wolf would only be fully present when the god came into his knowledge of himself. Sanity came to her now only in glimpses. She had killed, she had suffered, she had striven towards magical insight. Now worms seemed to gnaw through the labyrinth of her thoughts. Structures and links were missing from her mind, ways blocked, burned and broken. So other paths had been found, bored through the lattice of ordinary assumptions, building precarious bridges between areas of her mind that had only ever communicated indirectly. Others would have called it madness, but to the queen it was a blessing which she had won through her years of murder and pain.

  A realisation sparked inside her. She was the first of magicians, a sorcerer without parallel. She had hidden her intentions even from herself, afraid that knowing her own plans would compromise her with the god. If he knew she was acting against him he would strike. But, deceived, she was safe. While her energies were directed at a false target, the god would think he had time — he might dally, hesitate. And in so doing he had given her the chance to bring the wolf to the cusp of existence in the best possible way — by getting someone else to do it for her. Her visions told her she had even hidden from herself the true nature of the spell and which boy would be used to house the spirit of the god come to earth. Odin had not been able to force this secret from her because she had not known it herself. So the god had not seen the peril he was in until her protector was ready.

  She recalled the knot at the throat of the first dead girl — the dead lord’s necklace with its three tight twists, and she knew it had been a message — one thing hidden inside another, inside yet another. It was magic of the deepest depth, magic that works independently of the sorcerer — of her and through her, yes, but it could not really be said to be her doing. This was not spell casting; it was a force she had welcomed in as a child, something that now cast her.

  The witch’s thoughts floated free of reason and into the realm of magical thinking, beyond logic and sanity but with the strongest possible connection to reality — the connection of death.

  She clasped the rune to her, the one she had etched on the piece of leather. She held it to her lips, touched it with her tongue and breathed in its aroma. The smell was something beyond animal skin. It tasted of tears, funeral pyres and of the staleness of waiting. Loss.

  The wolf was coming but needed something to take the final step, a suffering to propel it into flesh and chase the human out. There was something living in the upper caves, the warmth of the air on the witch’s skin told her. It wasn’t a rat and it wasn’t a bird. She looked at the rune on the leather, its meanings spilling into her mind — storm, werewolf, wolf trap. The girl, she knew, had come and now the queen sensed her importance. She was the trap to draw the brothers in. The pieces of the magical puzzle were falling into place. The girl was there, the brother would come, only the wolf was missing. The rune seemed to pulse in her hand. Three in one, a knot of misery, denial and slaughter. Odin was very near. It was time to summon her protector, the dead god’s enemy. It would not be easy. The wolf had grown, she could sense, and was close to his full power. A creature that could stand in front of the master of magic and snap off his head would not respond to a witch’s call. Something more was required to compel hi
s attendance. The witch, whose mind was so linked to the caves that she could feel every movement within them, knew the girl had entered the hoard cave. She would go to her. She touched her tongue to the rune again. This time it tasted of blood.

  50

  Alone

  What if there is no air? What if this leads nowhere?

  Adisla tugged at the rope with increasing desperation, able to see nothing at all. The passage from the bottom of the pool was long, dark and entirely underwater, and she had gone too far down to turn back. She pulled and pulled, hand over hand, hand over hand, fighting down panic. The ceiling of the tunnel was smooth rock but she kept hitting her head, which forced her to bend her neck down so her shoulders took the impact instead.

  She struggled against the urge to breathe in or give up, to hammer at the ceiling and waste energy. Then, abruptly, the passage rose. Air hit her face and she swallowed it down. She opened her eyes to blackness. She could see nothing at all but crawled out onto the rough and potholed floor of a cave. She pulled herself up to sitting and felt something between her fingers, cold like autumn grass.

  ‘Hello.’

  The dead air of the cave seemed to cling to her skin. Dead air. That was the smell — something was rotting. Adisla composed herself and reached for the pouch at her side for the flint, steel and tinder Feileg had taken from the Noaidi. The tinder was useless — she could feel it was soaked — but the flint and steel would work. She took them out, struck them together and the corpses were upon her, rotten faces looming from the dark. In the awful instant of the flint’s flash she saw three dead boys. It was not grass she had touched but hair. Adisla offered a prayer to Freya. She was almost glad of the dark now and shrank back against a wall.

  She waited for Feileg to come, holding her knees into herself for the small comfort she could take from hugging something. But Feileg didn’t appear. She had thought her example would encourage him. Had she been wrong? She forced herself to listen to her breathing to make sure time was really passing, that the eternity she felt was in reality no more than a few heartbeats. Feileg still did not come.

  She tried to think what to do. Return to the surface, she decided. Adisla felt for the rope and prepared herself for the haul back. It would be easier, she told herself — she knew how long the tunnel was. She took the rope in her hands and tested it. Yes, it was secured at the other end. She could pull herself through. Then she thought of Vali, enchanted and forsaken in that pit. If Feileg was incapable of coming through the tunnel, there was no guarantee another entrance to the witch caves could be found.

  A terrible thought struck her. What if Feileg had drowned in the tunnel? Would she find his body blocking her way? Trembling and terrified, she forced herself to think. This was the Troll Wall and the witches had been the death of countless heroes. Who was to say that Feileg would be any different? For Vali’s sake, she had to go on without him.

  Adisla steeled herself and searched the boys’ bodies, hoping to find a lamp. She found only the amulets at their necks. She took one. It had done the child no good, but who was to say it wouldn’t help her? Crawling past the boys, she cut her knees on the floor. Never mind, she was going to have to get used to that. When she was sure the corpses were behind her, she struck the flint again. In the brief flash she saw the passage going on and down, and went ahead before striking once more to check her way. She didn’t expect to see anything much, but thought she might at least get some warnings of drops, low ceilings or falls. Nevertheless, she proceeded cautiously, feeling her way forward. It was painful progress and it was slow.

  She hoped she would find Feileg again. He had told her that he had a great treasure in the hills. Feileg was naive and didn’t have the guile to lie about something like that. If he said he had treasure, he had treasure. It would be something she could use to bargain with the witches to get them to use their magic to bring Vali back to human form. She could offer her word she would deliver it. But what was the word of a woman? Perhaps Feileg would have been useful: they would more readily accept the oath of a warrior.

  She tried to smother her deeper thoughts. For as long as she could remember she had loved only Vali. Now she was terrified of him, and Feileg, with his honesty and kindness, offered her the chance of a simple life away from the affairs of kings and sorcerers. Adisla’s love for Vali had devoured her, Feileg, her mother, everything it touched. But for that love, the Danes would never have come for her and her mother would still be alive, little Manni too. She couldn’t abandon the prince, though, no matter what.

  Questions of the heart were for the sunshine and the open air. In the tunnels of the Troll Wall she had more pressing concerns. Adisla had never known such dark. It seemed like a beast smothering her, her flint a little thorn that she jabbed into its belly, forcing a momentary retreat, before its dead weight came down on her again.

  How would she call a witch? What would she say? Adisla didn’t know. First, she thought, she needed light. There was plenty of detritus on the tunnel floors. Surely she would come across a lamp eventually? It was impossible to believe that the dead children she had found had spent their whole lives in the dark.

  She crawled on and on, her fingers numb from striking the flint. At the end of one cramped fissure the ceiling and the floor came together into a narrow slash in the rock. She crawled forward and pushed her head and arms into it. Then she struck her flint and nearly dropped it in awe.

  She did not notice the cavern, the spears of white that dropped from the ceiling, nor the folds in the rock where dead witches seemed to peer out at you. She saw only the blazing gold piled high to the ceiling, splendid as a bonfire. She struck again and again, and among the swords, the byrnies, the goblets and the plate, the jewels and the coins taken in tribute from nightmare-tormented kings for twenty generations, she saw something far more precious — a fish-oil lamp.

  It was quite a drop to the floor from where her tunnel came in and she knew there would be no turning back once she had gone down. Adisla withdrew her head, wriggled round and lowered herself down feet first then dropped into blackness. Agony shot through her leg as she landed and she let out a cry that echoed back at her. She had twisted her ankle — the same leg that the arrow had struck. Even as she held it she could feel it begin to swell. No matter. She needed light. She struck the flint and crawled to where the lamp was. Her fingers curled around it and she shook it. It was nearly full. Again she hit the flint. Five, maybe six, tries and she located what she was looking for — something that would burn, a tattered cloak in some rich material she had never felt before. She found the edge of the cloak, teased off some threads and struck the flint. Adisla had made a fire this way thousands of times at home but now it seemed impossibly difficult. Her fingers were bleeding from catching them on the edge of the steel by the time an ember took. But then she had the lamp alight and looked around at the glory of the witch queen’s hoard.

  Her fear did not subside as the dark shrank back but it changed in nature. Before, the tunnels had seemed full of unseen eyes, invisible and hungry mouths. Now, in the silence of the huge cavern, she was afraid that she might be alone. Adisla realised that she might well die in these caves, witches or no witches. In some ways, to be alone was the worst monster of all. The gold was incredible but, she realised, useless. She couldn’t drink it, she couldn’t eat it, and it almost mocked her.

  The pain in her ankle was growing. Was it sprained or was it broken?

  There was a distant noise, a stirring like a breath but much louder. She told herself it was the wind, but the air was still. She wanted to extinguish the light and hide but knew that she had chosen to face whatever was in those tunnels. There it was again. What was it? Adisla’s throat was dry and she had to struggle with herself not to snuff out the lamp.

  Cold prickled her skin and she began to shake. The lamp was guttering, or was that her imagination? Panic gripped her. Adisla scrambled up but had forgotten her ankle. She screamed and fell to her knees, nearly dropping t
he lamp. The flame guttered and nearly died. She forced her hands to pick it up and held it high to look around.

  A terrible child stood over her, haggard, filthy, with the face of a woman and the eyes of the drowned.

  And then Adisla was calm. She realised that she had not seen the lady properly in the dark. This was no cave-dwelling hag, this was a queen. The lady extended her hand and her kind smile told Adisla to forget about all pain, the anguish she felt for Vali, her desire to find Feileg, even the agony of her ankle. It would all be all right, thought Adisla. She knew that this lady had suffered torments beyond imagining and could take all those that Adisla felt and wash them away. The lady was dressed in a fine robe embroidered with gold; a beautiful necklace burned at her throat and a crown of sapphires shone like ice in the sun upon her head. Even the dark seemed to peel away around this lovely woman.

  ‘I need you to help my Vali,’ said Adisla. The lady smiled and Adisla understood that she knew that and was already working to free him. From the lady’s demeanour, Adisla felt certain that even now Vali was on his way to meet her and that soon everything would be settled. This lady had great powers and could break any enchantment that Vali had suffered.

  Yes, everything was going to be all right. The lady had looked into her mind and sent her a vision to bring her peace. Adisla saw herself on a farmstead in the sun, children about her who ran giggling from old Bragi as he staggered around pretending to be a bear. There was someone else next to her, Feileg or Vali, she couldn’t be sure which. She felt secure, though, loving and loved among the people she valued most in all the world. The lady had shown her that future and she was grateful to her.

  Adisla took the witch’s hand and Gullveig led her to the lower caves.